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Former NRL star Matt Cooper has revealed hes been fighting a battle against an addiction to painkillers since retiring from St George Illawarra in 2011.Cooper, who played 243 matches for the Dragons in addition to representing NSW and Australia, checked into a private hospital last month to beat a year-long struggle with Endone.The 37-year-old told News Corp he feared he would die in his sleep and broke down sobbing while holding his daughters hand as he came to grips with his problem.It was a cocktail of prescription meds, painkillers, said Cooper.I was like, Im taking too many pills here. There were times there I was like, Im not going to wake up.I Googled how people die from this drug and they just stop breathing. That is when I realised I had to tell my wife. You can only hold a secret for so long and I was just getting tired.The night before I went in, I was sitting on the floor of my daughters bedroom holding her hand for an hour just crying because I thought tonight is the night I am not going to wake up.Coopers addiction to painkillers started about a year ago after helping his father-in-law work with a jackhammer, triggering an old neck injury.Surgery was going to be too risky of being paralysed. Ive seen some guys get operations where they come out and they cant even move their arm and it was a simple operation, he said.For 10 months I didnt do any training because I couldnt as my neck was too sore. I was sitting watching TV and pretty much not doing too much because I was in too much pain.It was a downward spiral from there.My doctor said I am lucky to be alive because of how much I was taking. 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It is the most enduring geography lesson I have ever had, and it brings closer and makes familiar places with which I have little acquaintance. It is, I have found, something that gives my life a coordinate, a kind of centre amid the changing clutter of daily life with which it is tough to keep up.But most of all, perhaps, cricket gives me a sense of myself. They say you only get a sense of yourself when you see yourself in relation to another. Cricket is that great other.Its like a relationship, this thing between the fan and his sport, some say. Well, only those who are not fans say that. Because it is not like any relationship that Ive ever known.On the average day, it is a relationship that is too full of shame and humiliation, too unrequited and too committed at the same time, too like a one-way street. If my wife had let me down half as many times as India have on the pitch, I would have walked out on her. But when it comes to the game, I can never, however great the disappointment in the last match and however certain I am of impending doom in this one, bring myself to turn away.Can you? If you can, you are not one of us. Which, come to think of it, is not such a bad thing. Because you are spared the painful pleasure of being a masochist. All fans - the ones like me who need sport to give a sort of shape to life - are masochists. WWhat else can you be when you switch on the TV at three oclock in the morning knowing that your team is going to get a pasting - again?For those of us who are too far gone, gone far enough in fact to embrace torment (We lost 0-3 against Zimbabwe? No matter, throw us a defeat against Bangladesh.ddddddddddddWell still watch), its not a choice. Its a compulsion. Addiction does not have rationality at its heart.The pact between a fan and his team is sacrosanct. It cannot be broken. It is not like the colas or the cars or the credit cards or the car tyres the players endorse. Dont like it? Flush it down the toilet. Sell it off. Exchange it for something better. Buy a new one.When things go wrong on the pitch, some of us go on mock funeral processions. Some of us threaten players families. (The first gesture is banal, the second despicable. But morality or ethics is not the issue here; it seldom is when you are talking about addiction.) Still few of us can stay away when our players walk out on to the field. Were we able to do that, TV ratings would slip and channels would not pay millions for satellite rights, companies would hesitate before pumping in billions to sponsor the team, and soft-drink majors would worry about putting their money where the nations heart isnt. The fact that they have not suggests that there are millions out there like me. Sometimes it feels like a brotherhood of misery.Every fan realises this: feeling miserable is part of the deal. But riding the misery and sticking with it is the deal. You cant support another team (Namibia?), or suddenly be passionate about another sport (ice hockey?). Its this or nothing. And nothing is so much worse. ' ' '